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November 29th
If I am falling in love with you I would be:
1. Ignoring your existence if we happen to work in the same circumstance
2. And at the same time trying to look after you in the most hidden way possible
2. Not adding you as a friend in all the social media’s platform we have
3. Observing you on our first dates like how you walk and eat and how you treat strangers around us
4. Studying your history from your acquaintances
October 19th
What would have been if we had never let go?
Who would we have become if we had given it another shot?
Where would we be?
The Start
- "Happy birthday, Nita. I hope you like the surprises."
- "I do love it very much. Everything was beautiful and very well prepared. This absolutely is one of the best birthdays I've ever had. I can't thank you enough."
- "I am happy if you are happy."
- "And you actually don't have to do this. I mean, with things we've been going through, you are only making me more confused."
- "But you know my heart, Nita. Why do you think I made efforts for your birthday if you mean nothing to me?"
- "I just need to hear it once out loud. I want to make sure if this is all worth the pain. Please, say those 3 words and I am yours."
- "I can't say it right now cause the least I want to do is giving you another burden."
- "But how long do I have to wait?"
- "I am trying to make you mine in my own way. I know it's hard but please stay with me until I could figure this all out, I'm begging you."
- "And why should I do that?"
- "Because I want to be with you. And I know you want to be with me too."
- "Fair enough."
Holding The Card
- "I already gave him the answer last night."
- "I know."
- "So he told you, huh?"
- "Yup. And like I said, he was freaking mad at me. He thought I was the one who forced you to say no."
- "I still don't understand him. Why would he even dare to ask for an advice whilst also being suspicious of you?"
- "Cause he was keeping an eye on me this whole time. He knew I was his biggest hindrance so he got the idea to tell me his feeling about you and wished that I would take a step back."
- "So did you take a step back?"
- "Did I?"
- "I don't know."
- "You know, Nita. And all the thoughts you have about me right now, is the same thoughts I have about you from the very first start."
- "I'm not following you."
- "We're only one step away from showing our own cards."
- "Why are we still throwing clues?"
- "Cause I want to be the first one to own up. Soon, but not now. And I need you to wait for a little more."
- "Ok, captain. I shall sit tight."
Clue
- “So, what’s up?”
- “Nothing. It’s just that you’ve been weird these days.”
- “Eh?”
- “I feel like you’re avoiding me and I don’t know what to do.”
- “I thought you’re the one who’s been avoiding me.”
- “No, I’m not.”
- “Are you sure? Cause I’ve talked to you the other day and you seemed quite timid, That’s why I thought you wanted space.”
- “Well, there’s another reason for that.”
- “I know, Nita.”
- “You know?? How? Nobody was there but me and him that night.”
- “I just know.”
- “Then what do you want me to answer him?”
- “It’s your feeling, you’re the one who should be responsible for it, not me. Why are you asking me this?”
- “Well…”
- “Are you in love with him?”
- “Isn’t that obvious? I barely know him.”
- “Then don’t bother saying yes.”
- “Ok. I’ll say that to him, I just hope he won’t get mad.”
- “But he will be very mad at me.”
- “You think so?”
- “Cause I think I am the one who’s taken the heart of a girl he is in love with.”
Somebody's Confession
- “It’s a bit cold isn’t it?”
- “I’m ok. I love the breeze tbh.”
- “I’m gonna straight right to the point. The reason why I asked you to meet me here is because there’s something I want to tell you. And it’s really personal so I have to say it in person. Do you mind?”
- “No, I’m listening.”
- “I think I am in love with you, Nita.”
- “What?”
- “I love your laugh. I love how you look polite in front of the others. I love the sincereness in you. You’re a beautiful kind human being to me. Your smile mesmerizes everytime. And I am in love with everything about you ever since.”
- “…”
- “Nita?”
- “I just don’t know how to react, I’m so sorry. I don’t mean to be rude.”
- “It’s fine. I know we’ve known each other for only a week, and you must be surprised to having to hear that somebody loves you in the blink of an eye. But this is true.”
- “Thank you for confessing your feeling to me. It’s just that I’m speechless…”
- “You are not seeing anybody else, aren’t you?”
- “Sorry?”
- “You don’t like him, or do you?”
- “No. You’ve already asked me twice.”
- “I’m just worried you may get heartbroken if you choose him.”
- “And how is that possible?”
- “Cause he told me he’s in love with somebody else.”
- “Well, it’s not like we’re even kind of a thing. If he turns out to have feeling for another, it ain’t my business.”
- “Glad to hear that. Actually it’s one of the reasons why I told you this sooner, I don’t want him to be the first one to confess. But after hearing that he’s into someone, I feel less anxious. So I guess I’ll wait for your answer then?”
- “I’ll think about it for a day or two. Are you ok with that?”
- “I’m fine, no need to rush.”
Another Heart
- "Are you sad?"
- "No."
- "Then why are you crying?"
- "I'm fine."
- "Do you miss your parents already?"
- "I'm ok with that."
- "It's because of him, isn't it?"
- "Who?"
- "The one who's been beside you for a week now, but ain't here by your side today."
- "Lol no."
- "Are you sure?"
- "100%."
- "I hope it's true, Nita."
- "Sorry?"
- "Nope. Just mumbling."
First Date
- "Hey."
- "Hi."
- "Where you goin?"
- "Upstairs. You?"
- "Nowhere. Just getting some fresh air."
- "Cool."
- "You wanna come with me?"
- "At this night?"
- "We could just stroll around the neighborhood & gaze at the stars. I'll keep you safe, I promise."
- "Do you mind waiting for about 10 minutes? I've to do my stuffs first."
- "No prob. Take your time. I'll wait here."
- "Alright. I'll see you then."
- "See you soon, Nita."
Planning The Future
- "I want to have my own science lab when I have my own house."
- "Yes! And we'll let the kids play in their science playground so they can be smart like me too, their perfect dad."
- "Lol. Why are you getting involve in my own dream?"
- "And we'll build our house near the beach, with the sunset as a view."
- "But I'd prefer the downtown to live in."
- "We can't have many kids if we live in an apartment, princess. The environment & surrounding would be uncomfortable for them to grow up in."
- "Who says I want lots babies?"
- "I do. I want 5."
- "5?? Are you mad?"
- "No. And I can't promise you not to add the numbers again, cause once we get married you are all mine."
- "You silly man!"
Notes
The day after tomorrow I would be teaching Mathe in front of 50 Indonesian students in Uni. Giving lessons about Mathe isn’t new to me, but teaching in front of the people from my own country is. I’m excited yet somehow worried. What if they judge me? What if they don’t like me as their teacher? As I know my own people tend to be more criticized about appearance rather than the Deutscher. What should I wear? In which language should I speak? Should I become fierce or amiable? What if I can’t answer their question?
I don’t know.
Maybe I’ll just give the anxiousness to tomorrow me.
Gotta hit the hay soon cause I’m getting sleepy.
Gute Nacht!
